Bugs @ Night

I can’t sleep! And I’m thinking about work once again. Well, not really about work, but my career.

I just finished browsing through a list of jobs online that you could do home based since almost everything can be done online. And it really made me think why there’s a lot of jobless Filipinos. Well unless you’re lazy, choosy (well I can say I am choosy myself, but I know I have something to be choosy about.lol), you did not study well back in school days, or just not smart enough (I don’t believe this one much though), then yeah maybe you can hardly get a job, but it’s gonna be all your fault, right?

Anyways, I used to be a coder and since I stopped working on a physical office, I stopped coding as well and my succeeding jobs were a bit off the track. But lately I’ve been really thinking a lot and I kind of missed coding actually. And I don’t know coz it’s a difficult job and I’m not sure if it’s just something like getting homesick? Or sometimes I think maybe I just missed getting my brains twisted in figuring logical problems(coz I don’t really solve problems as hard and difficult as those in my current job). Then I would ask myself, am I really ready to give myself headaches once again??

I also started to think that coding is really for me. Something that suits me. Because I like concrete things. I mean, specific solutions to specific problems and coding is a lot like that. I don’t understand abstract or things with no specific rules. Maybe that’s why I can’t be creative. I can’t think or draw of something I just made up. I can’t even draw without a model or something to replicate.

So yeah, I think it’s decided I’ll find time and way that I can code again. I’d like to learn a lot of things. Only if I have all the time in the world but that’s impossible. I’m 21 and I no longer feel young to learn stuff. I want to have the experience and all the knowledge I can get. I kind of crave for learning in coding. I feel too old for my low level of coding-knowledge.

So help me God. Aja!

Warning: Tagalog post.

Alam kong ganyan naman talaga ang usual meaning or synonym ng work. But I’ve never felt it much that way until now. Gaaaadd..

Since I started working online madalas papalit palit na ko ng boss. That’s the disadvantage of working online naman kasi talaga. Until last November I was hired by an Australian company at malaki ang pay! Haha. The biggest salary I had for a single employer. Til then I was earning more than $400 monthly. Haha. Pero syempre hindi naman sila magpapasweldo ng ganun kung madali lang ang trabaho. It was not really my line of work so mejo hirap hirap din. 

And then last week was the worst days of my working career. Haha. Well not really the worst pero ang shunga shunga ko lang. Walang boss so mejo petiks. I was reporting on duty but then I wasn’t doing much kasi nga walang boss wala masyadong utos and the insutructions wasn’t clear. Until the boss figured out what I was doing or rather what I was NOT doing. Haha. Ayan mejo nanganganib na akong mawalan ng work dahil dun. Kaya mukang kelangan ko na maghanap ng panibagong work. Eh napapagod na ko. Haha. Napapagod na kong magapply ng magapply online tapos mawawala din naman. Goodness. What’s happening to me, huh? I wasn’t like this before. I wasn’t like this when I started work after graduation. Haha.

Naman talaga!

So help me God. Amen.

I was trying to have something I can go back and look into my thoughts of the past. Unfortunately, I’ve deleted my former tumblr blog (not on purpose), and now I’m starting zero.

For my first tumblr theme, I took inspiration on Dianna Agron’s blog, Inkhorn theme. Haha. I was also trying to create account (again) on dailybooth but they won’t let me. :(

Also, I kinda regret buying a Symbian phone. Haha. I can’t install useful apps that would help me with my daily online activity. Not that my phone’s (Nate - yeah I named him, really.) a waste, it’s just that most apps are only available for iphone, android, or blackberry phones. Poor Nate.

As of the moment, I’m stealing a time for work to have this post. 

Cheers!